â€¦Now before I go forward let me share the flip side of the coinâ€¦ through the experiences with the negative situations I have been faced with positive situations or forces. These are the ones that hold me together and allow me to dream about the possibilities of an endless reality of goodâ€¦
My life is complicated, as I have said in past issues. Anyone who has lived with the reality I have will understand this completely. It is hard to share what you go through with those who
donâ€™t have a clue to what is going on in the first place. They are the people who live in the day to day grindstone of life; only interested in the things that they can attain, hardly ever looking at what is going on around them, because they are too busy to be concerned with it. They find their entertainment in the momentary thrill of what is presented to them by the controllers of the public domain. They are not worried about anything that may test the reality they have come comfortable living in. Look around and you will see what I mean.
My family is a prime example of this. There is one side that denies the existence, because they havenâ€™t had an experience. It is funny, because today is actually the 4th of July, and we were celebrating it as a family. We are sitting in the living room talking and the television is running the movie, â€œIndependence Day,â€ which we all know is a movie of bad ETâ€™s coming to take over our Earth and destroy the human race. My brother makes a comment about it. I canâ€™t remember it exactly, but it led into a conversation about ETâ€™s, who they are, and what their purpose is. Within a short time, minutes, I am rambling on about the grays and the reptilians. I look to my sister-in-law and I saw the overwhelming fear she was filled up with. She didnâ€™t like the conversation I was having. I wasnâ€™t trying to express anything negative about the subject, but I did show a link that it does have its origins throughout the history of this world.
Well she only saw the negative aspect of the phenomena, because her beliefs are based on the information she has received from the various movies, shows, video games, or general education; most of which portray the ETâ€™s negatively. I tell you the conversation took less than five minutes. One could feel the change of energies in them, especially her. They were ready to step out the door; it was time to go home. It always happensâ€¦never fails. If you ever have unwanted guests start talking about ETâ€™s and you will see them leave faster than they showed up. If they are interested you are in a whole different situation, because there is a good chance you will be up all night trying to prove to the others the truth as you â€œexperience itâ€. Why would I state this
â€¦ I use the expression, â€œExperience it,â€ due to the fact I believe what I go through may not be the same for the next person. We really base our experiences on what we have been taught to believe in our lives. It took me eight years to change my beliefs toward the ET phenomena and the dark forces of man. Over this time I visited many emotions and wanted to at times hate, blame, and destroy those who I believe had harmed me, including man and ET. But I have learned that those words (hate, blame, and destroy) are the same ones that led me into a place where I could not find happiness and joy. I had little room to breathe let alone experience life to its fullest, because all I wanted to do is get revenge from what I believed was reality. I broke relationships off, denied the truth that it ever happened, and in time found myself fighting a battle alone withinâ€¦
â€¦the end resultâ€¦to find it we must start from the beginningâ€¦but more on that next weekâ€¦